Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Raped By a Demon for the Past 12 Years

I was 19 when my demon first raped me. I was traveling with a show, and I lived in a tent. The first night that it came to me, I thought that I was imagining it. I was asleep in my tent when I felt this cool breeze blow right on top of me. The next thing I knew, it felt like hands were going down my pants and they were feeling me up, and then they were inside of me. After a few minutes, I felt a weight on top of me; it pulled my legs apart and  then it was inside of me. I had no idea what was going on; all I knew was that it felt like there was an invisible person having sex with me. The first time only lasted about 30 minutes or so.

The next day, I felt confused as to what happened to me that night; I felt like someone had sex with me, but I didn't believe what had happened that night to be real. The next night, I was lying there asleep, when it came back. I felt the weight on top of me and I couldn't move, then it pulled my legs apart again. I tried to close them, but I couldn't. I tried to move, but I couldn't do that either. Then I remember trying to scream and nothing  came out of my mouth. By this time the thing was inside of me raping me. I remember trying to fight it off, and it hurt so bad. No matter how hard I fought, the thing kept me pinned down and continued to rape me for another hour.

Morning came again, and I felt like someone beat me up. I was so sore: my arms, my legs, my thighs, my privates......all felt like I was raped.  I didn't know what to think. I didn't know what to do. I told myself that it was all in my head and that I had imagined the whole thing; but I was so sad. I couldn't smile or laugh; I cried. I cried all day.

Night came again. This time I was  scared. I was scared as hell. We were all sitting around the fire, and everyone was talking, and I just sat there and I stared.....thinking...."was I raped? Will it happen again?" Time finally came when everyone decided to head off to bed. I can remember being gripped with fear that night, but I went to bed. I laid there and a few minutes later, he was there. I started crying, and I tried to scream, but couldn't. I tried to get up, and managed to get halfway up and almost on my feet when the thing threw me down hard. I was completely paralyzed after that. He pulled my legs apart and he got on top of me and he raped me all night long.  It was so painful, and I kept saying, "It's not real. It's not real." over and over again.

(With each rape, I could feel it's energy and I could feel myself being drained. After each rape, I would pass out and not wake up til' morning.)

The next day, I was in the  worst daze. I couldn't speak but only whisper. The tears wouldn't stop coming. I couldn't eat, speak, or anything. I just sat and I cried and cried and I just stared off into nothingness. I wanted to scream and tell somebody......but who would believe me?

I was terrified all day; then night came.......FEAR......utter fear is what I felt. I could feel him watching me and waiting for me. I sat there and just stared into nothingness, and I was screaming inside of my head. The closer it got to when everyone decided to head off to bed, the more scared I would get. I could tell that my friends were worried. They looked at me with a sadness. They asked me if I was okay, but I couldn't even answer them. Then the time came.....everyone headed off to bed, and so did I.

I wasn't in my tent for even a minute before he was on me. He threw me down and he raped me again. I was trying to fight back, I was trying to kick, my arms were pinned down. I tried to lift my body up, he slammed me down. I tried to scream, but only a whisper came out of me. Finally, after a couple hours, he finished.

The second I could move my body, I got up and I ran out of my tent as fast as I could. A couple of my friends couldn't sleep, and they saw me clamor out of my tent into our common area. I was crying  and shaking. They asked me what had happened, but I couldn't tell them. They were ready for bed, and one of them asked if I wanted to stay with him; just so that I could sleep......so I agreed; I didn't want to be left alone.

We went to his tent, and we laid down. I was still crying and I was shaking uncontrollably. He tried to put his arm on me to comfort me, but I shuttered, and he immediately removed his arm. After a short while, I saw a shadow come across the side of the tent, then I felt him inside of the tent. I was crying and I can remember saying, "no more." I balled up as tight as I could in a fetal position; the demon  pushed me onto my back and pulled my legs apart again, and was raping me again right in front of my friend. I was crying, "help me". I managed to grab my friends' arm, and I held it as tight as I could. I kept saying, "It's not real." and "help me" over and over again. I started begging for it to stop.....and I can remember how painful it was...........my friend didn't know what to do. He asked me what was happening to me, but I was unable to answer him. He tried to pick me up, and he couldn't. He was scared, and he didn't know what to do. Finally it ended, and by that time my friend was freaked out, but he stayed with me until I was asleep.

The next day was a complete haze.....I felt like I was outside looking in.  My friends looked like strangers to me. We had a mirror hanging on a tree and I looked at my reflection. It was someone else standing there; I didn't recognize the girl staring back at me.  I hated what I saw......I felt so dirty and ashamed. I picked up a rock, and I started to hit the mirror where my face was, trying to break it. One of my friends saw and came over. She took the rock from me, and she put her arms around me, and I just broke down into endless tears. That whole day I didn't leave the common area. It hurt to walk or move even, so I just sat in my chair and stared and cried; completely catatonic.

That night was Halloween, and my friends went out. I didn't want to go anywhere, or be around anybody, so I just hung back. I tried to walk around a bit, but I felt like this stranger; I felt like a ghost. I went back to my campsite and no one was back yet. I had another group of friends that found me all alone and they asked me to hang out with them. They knew that something was going on with me too, but left the issue alone.  That night I stayed with them, and my demon raped me in front of all them. When it was all over, they wanted to take me to the hospital. I had been so horribly weakened from the attack that I was completely lifeless. When I tried to speak, only a whisper came from my mouth. I told them not  to take me to the  hospital; I was scared. What could they do? Nothing. No actual person raped me.....no......a demon raped me......invisible........but real.

After that night  all my friends knew that something definitely was going on with me. No one ever left me alone after that. Also, I had a friend who offered his place up to me, where I was somehow protected from the demon. I slept for a whole  week, and wouldn't leave his place except to use the bathroom and to take a shower; and I didn't even do that alone. He was able to get information out of me; he got me to talk a bit about what happened to me. Luckily, I had friends who believed me. They were my safeguard.

There is another part to this story. I am what you would call a "sensitive" to the spirit world. I used to be able to see them all the time when I was little, but I shut that part off when I saw my demon for the first time when I  was around 4 or 5 years old. Now, I just feel them, and I'm affected by them. This place that I was in, when the attacks began, had a high spiritual energy. There were a lot spirits there, and they were everywhere. In the  beginning  I thought that it was just an evil spirit; but I know now that it is a demon. I also have the natural ability to use magick, and my friends taught me how to control it; they were all in the craft, (which I now know didn't help the situation.)

They taught me how to use my "gifts" to perform protection spells and everything of that nature. One big thing they  had to teach me was to control it. I was sending all kinds of  stuff out there with just my  emotions from the attacks. One night I stared into the fire, and just put all of my  pain and despair and my hurt into that fire and I sent it out. The following morning, I awoke to my bed on fire. I was lucky to have had water nearby to put it out.

Time came for  me to go home, and the attacks started back. I ended up becoming  physically ill from it. I couldn't eat meat for a whole year, because it made me sick. Then it got to where every time I ate, I threw up. I also started having severe anxiety attacks that were so bad, people would call an ambulance and I would get sent to the hospital.

Finally after 3 years, the attacks stopped for a while. I met someone and we had an affair. I got pregnant and had a son. When my son was almost a year old, my demon came back, and the attacks started back up.

It's been 12 years now and I'm 31. I have 3 children and my demon still comes and rapes me. There have been dry periods where a couple of months would go by and nothing. But the demon always comes back, and when he does, he stays for a while.

I have learned something amazing though. Four months ago, I met a guy that I work with, that saw in me everything that I have been going through all these years. He is a Christian, and he has helped me to get away from magick. I had to accept a truth; that even though I believed that I was a "natural white witch", I was serving the wrong master. There is only God and Satan, and Satan controls the occult. Once, I understood that, and came to terms with it, I was able  to fully turn my heart over to the Lord. Ever since then, I have prayed every day, I read my bible and I seek the Lord. It has been hard, and my demon started attacking hard core everyday: every time I would pray, every time I would read my bible.....attack.

I have  been studying the word hard core and seeking him hard core, and he has been giving me so many blessings......Just recently I have been playing audio bible every time that I am alone or when I go to bed; and if  I don't get attacked tonight, it will make day  7 of no attack. Since October, I have not had more than 3 days without an attack from my demon. I know that I am doing  something right.

Read the books of the Bible; John, Mathew, Peter, Romans, Philippians, Ephesians, and Isaiah.....those are just a few. Stay away from occult sites, they belong to Satan. He is a wolf in sheep's clothing. White magick is his too. Google " spiritual warfare" sites; you can also YouTube them. There are free audio Bible sites too. Just Google it. Or just open up a Bible.

For we wrestle not against flesh and blood,
But against the principalities, against powers,
Against the rulers of the  darkness of this world,
Against spiritual wickedness in high places.
                      Ephesians 6:12

God is the only way out:

He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
But those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They  will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
              Isaiah 40: 28-31

Only  the Lord can deliver us from evil. It is Satan's great plan to hurt God by destroying us, and keeping us in our misery, and despair. He takes away our hope and our faith, only to keep us chained to him, and away from our God.

Be self controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil, prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.
            1 Peter 5:8

Ask and it will be given to you,
Seek and you will find,
Knock, and the door will be open to you
For everyone who asks, receives,
He who seeks, finds,
and to him who knocks,
the door will be opened
           Mathew 7:7-8

Prayer, and the word of God are our most powerful tools. It is God's battle to fight for us. Just give your heart to him and he will take care of you. Ask him to fight for you. Pray in all things and thank him everyday,even for the small  things.

For those of you who read my story, thank you. This is the first time I have ever fully shared my story with anyone. Apart from the people that were with me when the attacks began, only one other person knows the extent of my attacks, because I have always dealt with it in secret out of fear of being put away in an institution. I am sharing my story today, because there are so many girls out there going through this, and there are no answers for them. I'm here to tell you that yes, there is an answer. I thought that I would be bound to my demon forever and for a long time I gave in to it and gave it what it wanted. I am no longer it's prisoner, you can do the same too. It's not an easy road, but it's better than being a sex slave to the devil. I love the Lord and I thank him everyday for never giving up on me, and sending me someone who has become my best-friend. I am not alone and neither are you. The Lord will always be there to pick you up and to comfort you.

STAND FIRM AND DON'T EVER GIVE UP!!!!

Sent in by Mell

115 comments:

  1. I am so happy that you have found a way to protect yourself as much as possible. I so did not thik something like this ever happens, it has never even crossed my mind. This is scary stuff, keep strong and may God bless you and your family!!

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    1. It does happen it has happened to me before i am 19 and just last night i went to sleep early when i felt a hand on my back it woke me i knew what was about. To happen it has happened a couple of times but i always thought ibwas dreaming btw i have never had sex . So i tried to go back to sleep but i had to be sure so i laid on my side with half of my face covered and the other half uncovered. I pretended to be asleep and my covers started to raise slowly. When ever i would open my eyes it would stop then start again when i decided HEY THIS IS REAL so i jumped up put on some pants and ran out to the living room where my grandmother and father were sitting and talking then I asked my grandmother is she is seen any ghost because that's what I thought it was at first she is it yes I seen her she says that she doesn't do anything though and desperate I broke down crying I said I don't think it's going to end because the logos don't worry. And my father said what he was so surprised to hear me say that and I told them what happened and my grandmother just gave me a hug she said the demon just was hacked her before she received her blessing so now I know what I need to do I need to get closer to God and the Christmas and such as or anything because I do do that that is called gladly masturbation question for ya graffiti and other stuff of that sort I was terrified

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  2. Wow...This is such an interesting and wonderful story. I am glad that you are better and that you are fighting your demons although I am not a christian but I myself am a practicing witch so to speak I have had my attacks but not as severe as yours and they have stopped too. I do not think occult leads to satan at all and I strongly believe in it and it has chamged my life for the better. Good luck! I love you.

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  3. Amen!! call billwinston ministries baby girl and keep you faith I PROMISE YOU IF YOU DO YOU WILL NEVER HEAR FROM THAT DEMON EVER AGAIN EVER!!

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  4. are you like, schizophrenic or something! my whole family are christian and im not, i don't believe in that bull crap. your either schizo or your attention seeking or your just making it up for the sake of it. demons arent real! neither is god or Satan. when you die you don't go to heaven or hell. when you die theses nothing!so wisen up and live in the real world! you freaking wierdo!

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    1. You're very immature and obviously don't need to be in a grown up site. God is real. Demons are real and if you don't wake up, you're going to figure it out the hard way. By then, it will be too late. Some people never listen.

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    2. How is it that u are so sure?

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    3. I feel sorry for those who dont believe in Jesus & God because hell is there wether you believe in it or not, AND it makes me sad when people dont believe in our heavenly father because w/out him theres no HOPE & we become just the way the devil wants us LOST & miserable! Remember misery loves company & thats exactly what you'll be "COMPANY for SATAN" if you're not a believer & a child of God! Whether u believe in hell or not it WILL be waiting for u on the other side to devour u in the lake of FIRE forever and ever!! So Believe & Repent & get Baptized for theres nothing greater to Love & worship then our Lord Jesus, I know I could never live w/out him & neither can anyone else no matter what they say! GOD BLESS

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    4. And how are you so sure? Everything created does not lead to nothingness, it is scientifically impossible.

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    5. And this is way I don't like scientist they think everything is scientifically prove. Butit is no God, demons, and Satan do exist. Satan and his demons are everywhere all around us hiding amongst the live. I am just 17 and I believe in the lord Jesus crist. And hop and pray that you get yourself together because when God come he is goning to cleanse this world from all it sins and all it wrong doings and when that time comes I hop your beliefs has change. Because it people like you how things that scientis knows the answers to everything. But they don't so listen to your family they believe in the right God and you need to read your Bible. This woman is going through something that's is herting her and all you have to say is something mean and that this everything that is going on in the world is scientificly proven. You need God you have question about how the world is made, why people die eft read your Bible it give you the answer that scientist can give you.

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    6. Xkalibur SpellbladeNovember 6, 2012 at 5:17 PM

      Demons and Angels walk among the human race. I have studied and practiced every form of magickal art I have heard of, I have dabbled in the realm of demonology for many years now. I assure you, God, Satan, Demons, Angels and Heaven And Hell, are much much more real than I would ever have imagined as a child. God bless this strong woman for surviving what she has...most demons, don't leave humans alive for long.

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    7. I will pray for you because even though you do not believe in Our Lord and Savior Jesus, He Loves You and He is for you not against you...i pray that someday soon before it is too late...that you would come to know the Only One you can fully rely on...Jesus Christ....I do not know you, but He does, and even though you are speaking harshly I believe that you are good. because God formed you in the Heavens and He Only makes that which is lovely and good. And so you are. I know...I was totally against Christians not to long ago. and Now I know, and it is the ultimate gift to have even a small concept of how much we are Loved by our Creator. FEAR NOT!!!! It is Relationship Not Religion that I am speaking of....I pray that you would come toknow the difference....AMEN!!!

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    8. Who made you so 'all knowing' how the hell do you know if there is a god or if there are demons?? Everyone can have there opinion but dont go calling another persons beliefs 'bull crap'.

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    9. I am so shocked after reading your story. I can't describe the feeling I have in this moment. I too have been raped by a demon and have always been sensitive to ghosts in the past. Sometimes I get numbing spots in my head and I could remember my childhood so vivid. My husband has a hard time believing me. He believes I have sleep paralysis. It has even happened to me while my kids were sleeping in my bed. I am afraid to seek help because I already know what the end result will be. I pray all the time. I know God is always with me, but I am still afraid to sleep alone in a dark room. Thank you for sharing your story.

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    10. I was raped by Lucifer for 2 & 1/2 years, & I am not a schizophrenic. Lucifer is a filthy dirty pig. Christians can be raped by demons. I felt dirty, & to this day I struggle with the emotional pain this demon caused me.

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    11. I am a Christian and in the past out of ignorance, b4 becoming a Christian, I had done a spiritual marriage with a demon. Now I am married but this spirit keeps on manifesting saying that he does not want me to have any children and he is making my life hell. Last night I was washing dishes in my house when I felt a spirit wanted to rape me in my butt. I fighted for almost 2/3 hours until he was gone, but I had a vision that he had released inside of me. I want all this to stop and I do not know. I am desperate. Christians should not receive attacks of this kind. I feel something is wrong and I don't know what it is

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  5. To: "are you like, schizo..."
    Why judge what you don't understand Dude! Your no better than anyone else here. There is no need to pretend you are.

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    1. I don't believe in the devil or GOD. And if I am wrong I'm sorry for not believing and do not punish me. I will find this out when I die. Which i hope never happens

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    2. I do not believe in the devil or GOD. If I am wrong i will always find out when I die and if I am I'm sorry for not believing. I'm living life as it is. I'll worry about where I go when i die. Hope it's not soon!

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  6. @ the last Anonymous.This is Mell, and I just wanted to say that your an idiot! If you don't believe in God or Satan, then that's your problem. They believe in you, whether you want to admit it or not. What the hell are you doing in sites like this that talk about demons and God if you don't even believe in them and at 5 a.m. none the less. Your a hypracrit, and my guess is, you were probly surfing the web and reading "cool" stuff with your 'buddies'. You read my story that was meant for girls seeking help and figured you would look cool in front of your 'buddies', and started to talk sh*t. Demonic rape is REAL and happens to a lot of REAL people. It hurts just as bad as being raped physically by a person. I'm tough and I've been hardened over the years, so what you say does not affect me, but you need to be careful, because a lot of girls confessing out there are scared and hurting and feeling like giving up. Your words can affect them and might cause them to do something stupid...you know like hurt themselves, or worse kill themselves. Its ignorant pieces of crap like you that keeps us living this HELL in secret. Its terrifying and it destroys you every day. To know that when you go to bed, you're going to be raped...or to step out of the shower and get raped...then, you have to step out of that room and face your family. You have to have your senses about you to just take care of your kids and get them on the school bus. Then you have to go to work and face your friends, and deal with customers. You have to numb yourself just to handle the day. Inside your crying, but on the outside you have to put on a smile. The worst part is, your alone and always scared and you have no control over the situation, every part of you wants to give up. It's a fight to keep going. You cant tell anybody because people like you will make comments just like yours. I am lucky to not be dead or in a mental hospital for what I have endured.I walked in the dark my whole life dealing with demons first hand from childhood, and no one will convince me otherwise. Until you have been touched by pure evil, keep your mouth shut. As for God, I'm thankful that I am one of his children and for him NEVER giving up on me. I thank the Lord for his comfort. If not for God, I would have given up years ago. This post was meant for girls/women going through the same situation. There is no help out there or any real answers for them. Writing my story was extremely hard for me, and I am glad that it is out there for those who NEED it. Your mother should have taught you that if you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything at all. Until you have experienced horror, I advise you to stay out of others. Oh and yeah, I know where I'm going when I die. It's a place called Heaven. So, shut your face and go back to your video games you freakin weirdo!!!

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    1. ...and do fairies, sprites and goblins believe in you too? Or is it only demonic creatures dreamt up in Europe in the Dark Ages that qualify? If she said the chupcabra raped her would you find it believable? Has any one observed the rape in an objective setting? Did clothing suddenly move of her body on its own? Could observers see the vulva expand to accomodate this unseen demonic penis. She did say her friends watched her being raped... so why not visit the nearest academic department interested in paranormal activity and have them record the rape... which she says is real in everyway except that the perp is invisible. 200 years ago you gullible believers in Christian mythology also thought that epilepsy and schizophrenia were demonic possessions. Thankfully science was able to intervene and save you idiots from your own ignorance. The writer is obviously distressed by what she perceives is happening is her. Instead of rambling on about unlikely and far fetched explanations, why not encourage her to seek help from medical science. Heres a questions believers in myths need to ask: If a you saw a car burst into flames, would you assume an invisible fire demon had set it alight and recite from your Bible in the hope that the fire will be extinguished and the occupant delivered unharmed? Or would you try to extinguish the flames and pull the victim to safety?

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  7. I pity your situation more than mine. When you take your last breath, I'm sure that it won't be Darwin that you cry out to for help. I am a Christian and no matter what happens I know where I am going. Separation from the Father for all eternity isn't just a long period of time, it's your choice. We seek help when we need help. Not believing in Jesus is a larger problem than what I have. Good luck with that. I will pray for you.

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  8. Hello Mell. May the Lord Bless you and keep you.
    I'm sorry that you had to endure such agony. I was also attacked by an incubus demon, but most of the years, was during my sleep and I didn't know it was raping me, to me they were just erotic dreams and they happened mostly during my ovulation period. It finally manifested during the daytime and then was when I was geting at the end of my robe. I've been a christian since May 2007 and The Lord activated my dreams and visions and showed me the exact moment that i unknowingly called this demon in my life. I read a story about a woman who had a "wedding" in her dreams and this handsome young man whom she didn't know had asked her to marry him so she did. Soon after, she realized that a spirit was following her in her daily routine and ever helped her crossing the street and accompanying her everywere. She said that she like it and that she was accustomed to him. When I finished reading this story i commented to myself : "I would like a husband like that too". So when The Holly Spirit revealed this to me, i inmediately began to brake that spiritual vow in the Name and The Blood of Jesus and inmediately i began to be delivered and things left my physical body. It has been close to a month now and the entity still lingers around to see if i let him in.
    If i may offer some advice here, I would ask you to stop calling this your demon. You are unknowingly taking possesion of him. He is not yours, he belongs in hell. I would also recomend reading the book "Prayers that rout demons" by John Eckhard. He deals with the breaking of generational curses, ungodly soul ties, familiar spirits and everithing else. Pray also that the Holly Spirit shows you the place were the door was open to this. In my family ancestry was a lot of witchcraft and i thing that my grandmother and mother were also victims of this demons. I pray that you'll be completely free by the power of His Spirit. (Zach. 4:6)

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    1. I totally agree with you about Mel called it "her demon". Dont' make it personal Mel please. Anonymous, I had a similar story than you. Last night this so called "spirit husband" attacked me when I was washing dishes in my kitchen, trying to rape me in my butt. I fought for almost 2 hours. I am married but no children. The spirit does not want me to have children, but he has been defeated in Jesus Christ. He has to return to hell where he came from. YOu are not alone (unfortunately)...

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  9. To all those people who have not experienced this, you cannot judge in ignorance, you should be open minded, indeed it may even happen to you. Calling other people mental because you have not experienced the same as them shows your ignorance and lack of education. It is people like you that others should feel sorry for and not the other way around!. I have never experienced such a thing, but would never behave as you do.

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  10. I honestly thought I was the only person who went through this sort of thing. Thank you for posting your story somewhere on the internet.

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  11. I am going through something similar. But I never feel anything heavy and I have never been moved against my will. I am fighting but its hard cause just when I think I have beaten it, I feel ready to give in. Do you have anymore advice?

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  12. Hello nitevix. I comented above in Sep 22/2011. One of the things that helped me a lot was to ask Jesus to breack the link that this creature formed between my mind and his. When you now that you have beaten it and suddenly want to give up, is the creature putting that thought in your mind. He will even make you believe that you like and want this attacks. If you are not saved yet, just invite Jesus into your heart and tell Him to forgive you for your sins.

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    1. Thanks Ileana, that was very useful and true. God bless you

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  13. Wow, this is so overwhelming . I'm so sorry this has happened to you...Gosh, iv been studying witch craft for a while..I don't like Satan , but I like the idea of magic and I'm trying to understand if I do this, you know practice this, will this happen to me. I'm currently 15 years old and next time I'm going out with my best friend, we plan on doing witch craft and making potions..

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    1. ohh goodness dont do it.. i know this is a way late reply, but no. i was a christian, and then i got into witch craft, and then, it led a demon to my friend, and he called me for help, and i thought i could take him with my magic, BOY WAS I WRONG!! he slammed me over and over. his name was Avecnous, french for with us, or united states. hes gone, but its left some kind of portal or something open. allowing me to be scratched, and they make me physically sick. not a good idea, anything could happen. just know once you do craft, it opens you up to all sorts of demonic happenings. i returned to jesus, and he spoke to me, ill never forget it either, i was praying with a lady at a church i was visiting, and she told me to open my heart and listen to see if he had any thing to say to me, and he said, "megan, just keep praying and ill take care of this." and he did.

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  14. God, is truly the only way to break a curse like this. He is.light all else is darkness. Trust im him to make.your path straight

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  15. Just wanted to let you know that I Believe in Jesus and His Power over all devils. I am now 60 yrs old and have cast out demons such as this since I was 19. As you certainly found out, these evil spirits of the devil are real. Hopefully you are now free. If you need any help further to be free, you may contact me and I would be glad to instruct you, from God's Word and pray for you that you may be totally delivered from all the power of the devil(s). God Loves You... and Satan is defeated and has no right to torment you, if you are a Believer in Jesus Christ; and if you are walking upright before the Lord and submitting yourself to God, and resisting the devil with the Word of God and the Blood of Jesus. If you or any one you know needs answers or deliverance, feel free to contact me. www.garthhickey.com "He who the SON sets is free indeed!" Behold I give you Power to tread upon serpents and scorpions and over ALL the Power of the Enemy (Satan and his DEFEATED DEMONIC Spirits), and NOTHING shall BY ANY MEANS hurt you!"

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  16. I have been attacked by what I now think is an Incubus on and off for 3 years now.(I live alone, BTW). February 9, 2012, I suddenly felt sedated at 6 p.m. and I just had to go to bed which is weird because I have a hard time falling to sleep. For some reason, I couldn't keep my eyes open. Not long after I closed my eyes, I felt something slowly pull the covers away from my arms and then my arms were pinned down. I could feel 'something' slithering under the covers and then a heavy, crushing weight settled over me. At first, it was gentle and put its hand between my legs and began rubbing me. But then it began to push my legs apart. I resisted and it became forceful as it pushed my legs painfully open and I couldn't move. I still wanted to resist but when I did, it pushed its 'pelvis' aggressively into mine. It was very rough and it did it over and over again. It felt like it could've pushed me through my mattress. I knew something was wrong and I wanted it to stop but a few seconds later, a human man came to me in my dreams and it was him touching me instead. After this happened, for the next 2-3 days, I'm exhausted, sick and I can't really eat and when I went to shower later on that day, I noticed little weird red scratches on my inner thighs. Like where its hands were when my legs were forced apart. My inner thighs were very sore from trying to keep them closed and there is absolutely no reason for the scratches or soreness. I know I'm not crazy. Some want to explain it away scientifically but deep down, this has nothing to do with science. I'm trying to be a good Christian but this leaves me feeling confused and moody, making me want to be angry at everybody. This thing hasn't gone so far as to truly violate me but I think it is trying to wear me down to where it can. It only attacks me in my sleep and only in my bed. It knows it can't touch me when I'm awake. After this happens, I sleep on my couch for the next 3 nights with the t.v. and the lights on. I just can't sleep in my bed for a little while. I know that God watches over me but why does He let this thing touch me in my sleep? I do pray so is it me or the devil hard at work as usual since he knows his time is almost up? Nearly the same thing happened again on February 28, 2012. So far, that was the last time.

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    1. Ask God to show you were the door to this attacks was first open. He will show you in dreams or visions. It could be generational. Inquire in your close family.

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  17. i'm being raped by a demon nightly. for me, its a physical battle when i try to read the bible or call for help. i feel him in me, and i hear his friends laughing at me. theyre all crowded around laughing and jeering and calling me a whore.
    i read this and called my pastor for help, who referred me to a spiritual warfare expert. ive been involved in the occult and have been dealing with this for years but the pastor who used to help me moved away.
    its so relieving to know im not crazy. thanks for sharing.

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    1. I have to say that I'm envious of women who have had sex or been raped by a demon. I've read stories that were not pleasant just as often as I've read stories of women who enjoy it. I wish I would be visited by an incubus at night. I would not resist as long as it was pleasureable for me. I have read about women who they have sex with for hours and it is a continual orgasm. If danyelle's incubus is paying attention, he can leave her alone and visit me whenever he wants. I won't resist.

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    2. Anonymous abovem, you are totally mad. YOu don't know what you are talking about. Someone raping you that you don't see day nor night, at the end he will drag you to hell with him. Get a proper man. Nonsense

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  18. psalm 121, opened it this morning... speaking volumes now.

    I highly encourage anyone who struggles with this to read it. :)

    Love you all in the name of Jesus Christ, and in no other name. May God bless you and show you the need of his truth. NO other truth will do.

    But, the kingdom of God is for the humble, because you have to want it to recieve it. So humble yourself :) If you choose not to you may find that life will humble you, as it did this young lady, and then you will find the truth. But ultimately it comes down to your choice to accept the truth. I promise truth is sweet :)

    He created all the spirituality around us. Don't worship the mess it made of itself (The demonic) worship the God who never changes, and is good :)

    With Love,
    Robert

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  19. Rem sleep is 3 things.

    1. unconsciousness (Duh)
    2. hallucination (dreaming)
    3. Paralysis (so you don't hurt yourself by moving in reaction to a dream.

    Take away number 1, you are still asleep, halucinating, and partially paralysed (coming and going)

    Nope this is not rape by a demon, just sleep paraylsis and dreaming while conscious.

    BTW, I know this is hard for certain dull minds to grasp and accept, but there is nothing supernatural, no demons ghosts angels gods nor satans. Simple truth, doesnt matter what you say back to me, its the truth and the truth doesnt change.

    If you take medications like an SSRI, you will be cured permanently and the 'demon' will never come back.
    That proves its not a demon.
    So yeah your friends should have taken you to hospital straight away so doctors could treat you.

    Oh and yes Ive had SP, myself.

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    1. Finally the voice of sanity. Thanks for that post. Unfortunately wasted on the primitives who posted here. After 100yrs of enlightenment they still try to explain away things they can't understand with the "supernatural". If this woman really hates being "raped" by a "demon" so damn much, ot wouldn't hurt to try an SSRI ... afterall she ought to be up for trying anything if it may help, right? C'mon ...humour us lady, take an SSRI for 2 months and report back.

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  20. to be honest i would enjoy a demon raping me.. well think about it. you are getting sex with out love. more or less free love. i mean if you didnt struggle or anything you wouldnt get hurt from it. and ontop of that if you grown to injoy it your life will be better. seriously im a Natrual witch with protection spells all around me it is not that hard to keep demons away you just need to have them fear you. dont be scared of them easy as that. when i was little i could see them now i am like you i can sense them but never got attack because i am not scared and mostly because i am a powerful in the arts. but dont be scared and laugh at them. you should look more to what you feel comfortable with and not the God everyone is saying. i belive in god. but not the God you think or belive in. trust me the bible is a fake. and christans are so over rated. in the bible it saids do not force religan on others. but christans do it all the time. trust me it is not somthing you want seriously all christans are the same. and i know alot of them are going to be pissed about what i am saying. XD well it is true. im sorry. but getting to the point. Either be scared of them which leads to more attacts. because it will get worse and it will come after your childern and farther down the line. Demons like to stick with 1 family. so even if they stop attack you they will turn to the blood that is the same. soooo on that note. either purefy your self not that hard to do. or place protective spells around but depending on how strong of a witch and how much you practice... god wont save you.. you are only going to make it worse. v.v poor poor fools. but hot storie btw i enjoy it XD

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    1. Little Miss "Free Love" This is Mell... a little 'free' advice...be careful for what you wish for. and btw your post made me sick!!!! You absolutely disgust me! You are truly ignorant and a fool! Rape is no laughing matter!!!

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    2. Anonymous above Mel reply, I was a white witch and no spell protected me from demons. The protection you build around you will one day destroy you. Is becasue I was in the occult that the consequences that I have done in the past are still persecuting me. YOu are a totally mad woman to wish that a demon will rape you. You will be dragged in hell by them at the end of your days. Trust me on this one. I saw hell with my eyes, I have been there and it is so serious you can never imagine what it feels like. The fool is you not us

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    3. Thank you so so much for this. I needed to hear it, and it is so true to my life. it is here 1.25am and I really have to go sleep. God bless you very much for this

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  21. is there anywhy to stop these things they act like they own me people are praying but they refuse to let go and i go to hell when i sleep. im tormented by their voices and other things they do to me 24 7 i love god and i try to live his way.they make it so hard every day.

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    1. You are one of the few people who are borne with the abbility to interact with the supernatural world. The enemy knows it and is trying to get you scared and to manipulate you. Have you received Jesus as your personal Saviour? If you have, then you can learn how to war against this demonic realm. If you learn about the power that you can move on against them, not only you will free yourself but others. Knowledge is the best weapon and the enemy is trying to kep you from it because he knows you can beat him.

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    2. You sound like you are part of God's spiritual warfare team. :) Ask Him "What for?" rather than "Why?" and listen for His answer. He will tell you what to do. Being 'spiritually sensitive' isn't a curse. It is a gift from God. It is a gift that was given to you for a reason. In Corinthians, the Bible talks about spiritual gifts: word of wisdom, the word of knowledge, faith, healing, miraculous powers, prophecy, distinguishing between spirits(this is you), speaking in tongues and interpretation of tongues. Satan wants you to fear your gift, by terrorizing you. The stronger you are in God, the harder satan will try. My sister and I have the same gift. I use it for cleansing households of evil spirits through the Holy Spirit with my pastor. Hang in there, soldier! :) And remember, satan flees at the name of Jesus Christ. When I was a child, I was in your shoes with seeing them and hearing them and being terrified. My whole family is christian and knew that my sister and I weren't crazy when we told them. My grandmother always said "those demons fear when you call on Jesus for help, but you have to show them who's boss. Every time they start trying to scare you or enter your home, you say 'In the name of Jesus Christ, I COMMAND you to get out!'" It always worked for us. Doesn't mean they won't come back for another fight, but it will certainly send them fleeing. At around ten years old, my grandma got me a book called "Angels and Demons" which described how to tell the difference between a 'familiar spirit' (A.k.a wolf in sheep's clothing- demon, trying to pin itself off as a passed loved one) and an angel. For example, Angels are too busy to sit and chat with you. I have felt the presence of an angel watching over me closely at my grandma's house, but I never got the pleasure to witness it. My sister, however (lucky girl) did. And the thing about angels is that this overwhelming sense of peace rushes over you. (That's my ooh shiny thought for the night. Lol.) But yeah, keep up your reading and praying and especially LISTENING to God. Listen through the noise. God bless!

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  22. To all who believe this is nonsense or harp on their beliefs being the only way.
    It is what you believe that matters from what I have seen... It is your perception. Christians have not been the only ones to ward off demons.
    Since I rejected christianity I have never been healthier, happier, and spiritually strong. Anyone can have a religous experience. It's in the brain...You can physically touch part of a preson's brain and poof they talked to God or experienced blank according to their beliefs. I don't have all the answers yet and who knows if I will...
    My professor had a patient with a bad case of schizophrenia in which she heard demons that was not getting better no matter the treatment until they finally brought out the old schock treatment (electrodes inserted into the brain to reset the brains charge) and that has finally has made significant improvement.
    I say all this because you mention these ignorant people who brush this aside like its crazyness when you are actually sounding rather ignorant yourselves. And hey maybe I sound a bit ignorant myself but someone needs to point this stuff out.

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  23. Seriously, the lady that started this, thank-you, I've been searching everywhere for people that have had these kind of problems. To the person that is dissing her story--Get a fucking life and get off this site. You are an ignorant fool. You make me angry. When this stuff happens to you, it's scary at all get go. To have to mock what has happened to her is insulting. Have you ever been raped pal? It fucking hurts! The demon that was raping me, the first time it went up me it felt like shards of glass, it hurt worse than any other rape I've endured. The demon that rapes me, never leaves, it is stuck on me for some reason. I am not a crazy person, nor do I have anything wrong with me other than these spiritual problems. Deliverance helps alot, pleading the blood of Jesus helps alot to. I pray hedges of protection up, and I have to do it everynight or I have problems with this thing. I have had the same problem trying to get this thing away from me for over 2 years. The firepower ministries knows about these things as well. Sometimes these evil spirits marry you in the spiritual realm. They are called spirital spouses. Look them up. They are incubbus spirits. Once they attach to you, they are very hard to get rid of, but it can me done. I hate the violations. I have learned to close my privates off by squeezing my muscles really tight, they can't seem to get through your skin, only entry points, like privates or mouths. I learned to sleep on my chair with my heel blocking off entrance. That helps me get sleep. This demon attacking me doesn't force me like that, but if it did, I would sleep with some kind of rope tying my legs together, they can't move the physical things like rope. At least the one attacking me can't. Jesus is one powerful name. Use it. And thank-you for your story, it brings me comfort that I am not alone. I hate evil spirits, and they deserve the hell they are going to get. Every minute of it.

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    1. Hello, this is Mell. I am writing to all of those out there who are in pain and are being hurt by beings that cannot be seen. There is no 911 or hotline for you to call. Instead you find yourselves on weird occult sites where people mock you and for you, there is no justice or shoulder to cry on.Well, I am here to tell you that you do have a shoulder to cry on and you DO have justice. GOD is your justice and JESUS is your shoulder. I tell you that I cannot wait for the day of the Great White Throne Judgment when God will judge ALL….including the demons. That day will be MY DAY….my day to watch GOD cast the demons that raped me for 13 long years into the fiery lake that awaits them in Hell!!! Your day awaits you too. God has finally delivered me from the rapes as well….Praise the Lord! It took time….It took Prayer and Fasting… It took Faith…It took Hope… It took Trust in God. He had to work on me. He had to teach me some things. There were some things that The Good Lord had to teach me that I would not have learned if He would have delivered me earlier. Don’t lose hope. Keep on praying and keep on reading the Word. Nothing can be stronger than the Word of God. The Word is living and active, stronger than any double edged sword. The Word IS God. Believe that. Also know that God has authority over ALL things. Including Satan and his demons. Remember sometimes we have to suffer for God. Remember Job and how he suffered for God, but in the end he was more blessed than he ever was before. Look at how Paul suffered for God and he even rejoiced in his sufferings. Look at Jesus and how he suffered for US. Don’t forget the big picture here. We are suffering for Christ…and there is a reward in Heaven for us for that. Satan wants us to forget that. He wants to hurt God by hurting his children. Hurt Satan by rejoicing in God…..Praise the Lord while your being attacked….Thank the Lord….Sing to Him…Worship Him….I tell you the truth…..the more you Praise Him and worship Him and thank Him ESPECIALLY while being attacked…..the weaker the demons will get over time. The more you will believe in YOUR GOD…..YOUR SAVIOUR….. REMEMBER…..HE IS THE AUTHORITY. Who do you fear? Who do the demons fear? They fear God. They fear Jesus. In Mark 5 when Jesus came upon a demon possessed man, the demons that were possessing the man were terrified of Jesus and knew who he was as soon as he walked onto the shore……
      “When he saw Jesus from a distance, he ran and fell on his knees in front of him. He shouted at the top of his voice, “What do you want with me, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? Swear to God that you won’t torture me!” For Jesus had said to him, “Come out of this man, you evil spirit!”
      ~Mark 5:6-8

      Just remember never to lose hope and to always pray to God for help. You are NEVER alone. Don’t ever forget that. The Bible is your most valuable weapon imaginable!!!

      ~But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you. ~2 Corinthians 4:7-12

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    2. mell, im going through it too... plz pray for me. I don't have much more time. I love the Lord and I pray hard and try to keep in the bible.. GBU and keep you

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  24. i got sleeping paralysis last night and felt someone on my stomach down to my thighs .. and around my butt .. are the demons trying to rape me?so confused ..

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    1. hello my name is Chris and I know what you are going throu, I was being raped also by a sucubis a woman demon but it started all nice and warm she came in to my dream at 1st, made love to me in my dream then she asked me if I would like to make love to her for real &then I said but aren't you just a dream???she said no but she is realy real&that she could come to me every night and make love to me as long as I wanted 2 and that Confused me a little bit also, ok in the beginning everything was ok she was nice about the sex that we had, but then it turned rought, she started pining me down forcing my legs apart,it started to hurt it went from making love to rape very fast,u see demons can change things on a dime,so I went and got some help from my local church,I went to the head father&told him what was going on he took me to the church's vault and got me a 100% pure silver ring and 2 small quarter sized mirrors he blessed all 3 itms then he put them in holly water, he told me to put one of the mirrors on top of my frount door, then the other over my bed room door on the outside of my bedroom door&wear the ring at all times & never take off the ring ,and to this day since then I did all this I have not had any problems that was 4years ago,now you probley are wondering about the mirrors you see Demons can't see there reflections it will send them back to hell...all you have to know is how to level the playing field with them thats all....

      Sincerely Chris. Anonymous
      p.s. I hope this helps any one else that is being attacked by Demons???
      oh and the sleeping paralysis is a power that they have but if you are protected by a silver ring then they can't use it on you any more.....

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  25. What you need to understand christian non believer is there are different realms for everything, destiny, realigan (and it comes in many forms, Christianity, buddiasm, catholicity,etc) Science, medical, spirituality everything has a right to exist, and it is all needed, but a scientist wont be able to explain in explainable spiritual stuff...for example things ive seen things no scientest can explain, But a priest could not tell ya how to get rid of the tumor on your brain,,, Now cant you open your mind up a little bit enough to even comprehend that if we found out cures to diseases, thought the atom was the smallest thing until we split in open and this whole mess a crap came out..dont you think that the spiritual/magical world could exist aswell???? And shes right why ya on here if your a skeptic, this clearly isnt the place for you you should be on nasa or sumthin :) Have a nice day. PS...to the woman that wrote this I dont know alot about this specific demon myself but I do know that most people would not of been able to handle that and I probably would have gone crazy...I guess Im kinda lucky I have people in my life I can discuss this stuff with ...Best wishes keep it strong...I also believe no everything is so black and white..theres lots of colors in between ...I too know a little bit about the spiritual realm because of the family I was born into.

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  26. Your an idiot. People are not born witches, anyone can do magick. And no, magick is not serving satan because god created magick. Why do you think you need earth, air, fire, and water to cast a circle. Because when god created earth he created magick. When sin came to the earth, so did the ability to abuse magick. Not all magick is bad and serving satan. Grow up

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    1. This is Mell saying to ALL THOSE WITH NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY......GO SOMEWHERE ELSE AND SAY THEM!!!! This is not the place for that!!!! Demonic Rape is a very serious topic that needs to be addressed!!! If you do not have anything nice to say than don't say anything at all. I wrote my post to help girls who are lost and hurting without hope and are scared. They are terrified of their beds and the dark and being alone. It's a nightmare that they cannot wake up from. They are afraid to tell anybody and even afraid to believe that what is happening to them is even real. Sometimes they tell themselves its all in their heads just so that they can deal with it, even though they know the truth. They think they are alone. They think they are lost. They are in so much pain. They become numb....numb to it all. they put on fake smiles and walk around in a shadow until one day they don't even recognize the person staring back at them in the mirror. They shut themselves off from the world and their friends and everything around them until one day nothing matters to them.....They are filled with RAGE and HATE. So like I said......HATERS ARE NOT WELCOME HERE!!!!!! I thank those who have shown their support and I pray that anyone that has needed help has found it and that they have found God and are fighting their demons. If God is for us who can be against us. Praise God! In Jesus' name! Amen!! ~Mell

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  27. Magic is not real. Demons are not real. God is not real. Satan is not real. Heaven is not real. Hell is not real.

    You are all deluded and if any of you TRULY believe you got "raped" by a demon, then you are schizophrenic and / or ignorant to the ways of the world.

    E.g. The guy above who thinks sleep paralysis means you got raped by a demon. Get real, people.

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  28. Mell, I am now 18. I have been a Christian all my life...this will be my first time sharing my story with any detail whatsoever...about three years ago i began to step out and fight in spiritual warfare. about nine months after i began my warfare was my first major demonic attack. i woke up in the middle of the night to my blanket falling off me and onto the floor; almost like it was being pulled off me. i was still hazy from just being woken up, so i though i may have just been dreaming it...then i felt a 'force' playing around at my feet, then grabbing my thigh...i knew it was evil and demonic so i started to panic...i think i may have caught gllimpses of what he looked like...just like you i tried to fight but felt pinned down...just like you i couldnt scream or speak...i could hardly breathe...i kept stuggling in every sense of the word until i could think straight enough to realize i should call out to Jesus...so i did, i called his name instead of breathing, and the demon ran. i jolted up and in my paniked haze, thought 'maybe it was just a dream'...but then i saw the bruise on my leg where it grabbed me...i am 99% positive i stopped him before he was able to really do anything to me as all this only happened in a moment, though it felt much longer...a year later (or a year and a day, depending on how you counted the year), he tried again, he moved quicker that time, but so did i...and i am almost certain i prevented him that time as well...but for some reason i cant be certain about either time...if he has tried other times, i dont remember, and i dont know if he will try again...

    every once in a while this comes to my mind, and this time, this page came up; and i am glad it did...i think, like you, i am going to put my story out there to try and help other women and girls...this isnt like other assaults where the perp can be found. in this case we know who it is and there is no where to run...thank you for sharing your story.

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  29. Thank you for posting. Jesus spoke of demons in his ministry on earth. He also spoke of hell and Satan. I have published a Prayer of Protection on my Prayer Blog. The Prayer is based on the first part of Deuteronomy - Chapter 28. I "discovered" this Prayer of Protection when I was watching an episode of Kenneth Copeland's "Believer's Voice of Victory" ("BVOV") and put together my own prayer. Here is the address for all those who are being attacked by evil spirits:

    http://michaelhathmangivemepeacenow.blogspot.com/2012/06/give-me-peace-prayer-of-peace.html

    This Prayer will help bind and bring to powerlessness all evil forces by dragging them to defeat to the foot of the Cross. I am sure it will help.

    Yours In Christ,
    Michael

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  30. Please read
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sleep_paralysis

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  31. Hello Me....This is Mell Thank you for your story. More people need to tell their stories. I would also like to thank everyone who has made a post to offer HELP to those who are still lost and being attacked by these things. At least there are sites out there now. In the beggining for me, there was no information out there. I had no clue as to what was attacking me. There were no blog sites or even anything out there that gave a hint as to an incubus or what one was. At least now people are seeking and asking and blogging. At least now information is there. BUT....BEWARE....THERE ARE A LOT OF MISTRUTHS....INCUBUS/SUCCUBUS ARE DEMONS THAT LUST FOR WOMEN AND MEN....THAT IS IT.....GOD IS THE ONLY WAY TO STOP THEM!!! TRUST IN GOD. PUT YOUR FAITH IN GOD. GIVE HIM YOUR HEART. GOD IS FAITHFUL EVEN WHEN WE ARE NOT!!! I will one day have my own site specifically for this. That will be my ministry. May God bless all of you and may he deliver all of you from your demonic persecution. God loves you (even the haters). In Jesus name. Amen! ~Mell

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  32. Small question, more out of advice rather than judgment or belief... I think you should see a counselor/psychiatrist. It seems you may be dealing with either ptsd, or regression of some sort. I hate to judge, but this does happen to people who have been raped in the past, ESPECIALLY as a child. They will also report seeing odd things, being disturbed as a child, being scared. Due to the fact that someone they felt they could trust attacked them, abused them. This honestly seems like you are reliving a legitimate rape... Have you tried going into regression therapy? Even talking to someone who will peer deep into your mind? Just a suggestion... I'm sure it's a hard thing to deal with, but it can continue 'attacking' you, if you don't realize what it actually is attacking you(which I feel is your mind, with potential memories you have thrown out of your mind. The mind has some amazing defense mechanisms for such disturbing memories.)

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    1. That is because Rape installs demons... these demons must be cast out. Casting out demons are not always as dramatic as they seem to be on TV.

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    2. Rape installs demons? Whaaaa? That makes no sense at all does it?

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  33. your story touched me very deeply, I have been suffering nightmares lately that seem so real. I can feel the roughness of his touch and I feel him inside me while I am asleep, I never tell anyone because I do not want them to think I am crazy, I wake up sore as if I had intercourse. I only slept with one man my whole life and I am engaged to him. I am 27 and had these weird dreams since I was 11. I read tarot and I used to mess with black magic but stopped after I had my 2 babies. but these nightmares I call them will not stop and I don't know where to turn. I just believe they are nightmares. at least I hope. but I have to realize the truth cause why else would my body be sore in the morning, it is hard cause my fiance works midnight's and I am always alone at night.

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  34. Yes Silver is good, what you are doing is great Mel, well done, faith and belief is a powerful thing, but for some they may also need cutting ties and attachments that our mind or these things can create (the line is often so thin it hardly exists). and that my study and experience of faith healing and inner study of my own experience may also help. Although I am multi faithed, calling St Michael is a great help but for many also understanding why and how they attracted them and what was the opening is also important. for my story please e-mail me on another above reply I left a while ago (if it was accepted).

    Much love,

    Si

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  35. Thank you for your honesty as it is so sad that the world is so blinded from the truth. People do not see the reality of the spiritual realm and it existence among us.God has given me the ability to see into the spiritual realm for over 10 years now. It is very real satan is viciously seeking out victims. Our own sin gives them power. The great sin of the world fuels their dirty work. I am seeking to help others be delievered from demonic oppressions and posessions. This is no game or laughing matter. This is truth. God is the only anwser for escape. Let everything that has breath praise God!!!

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  36. Hello sister in Christ dwell in God's words and you will always find peace. I have personally rebuked demons out of loved ones and fought them myself from my presence through the blood of Christ. Sister "at the cross of Calvary is where is all ends and it is also where it all began and where it will begin again at the second coming of the Lord - The devil has no power over the cross of Christ. Live, walk, speak, think, and breath God's word. Meditate on His Word day and night for where the Holy Spirit is the devil can not enter. Put on the full armor of God and turn from sin completely. Amen and God Bless you Always

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  37. I had a run-in with the occult. Back when I was 13 my friend (who was occultic) gave me and my other friends a ring. I put mine on. I didn't have anything occultic like happen to me till I was 14. A demon started to talk to me in my head. I think it was trying to get me used to the idea it was a good spirit because it would wear white and help me pray like if I am sick or something(I know strange). He would tell me to watch out for Lucifer but he didn't make an apperance until the day after my 15th birthday. Before that, he appeared in a vision like thing while I was reading my bible(yes, the demon would tell me when to read. eg. He told me to read instead of playing on our wii. He said it was evil.) When Lucifer really came, I was eating dinner when all of a sudden he said, "Do you know that Lucifer loves you?" Immediately after that, he was raping me for 3 hrs straight. Then I went to bed when he stopped. After that day I had problems with the occult and Lucifer. They tried to initiate me but failed and Lucifer was looking to marry me. God didn't allow him to. He came every night for a month to try but failed. He only humped me (it was weird) the 1st night and then possession raped me for 2 days the next time. He stuck around for a year. After that, he started leaving until one day he never came back. I was so happy when a prayer person said that he has left me alone! I told hin to leave because he would fail(I feel sorry for ppl like Rihanna that can't run away. I'm thankful that I was able to escape!)! Now, I have an incubus bothering me for 1 yr but I know God will help me and it WILL go. But ever since Lucifer left my hearts been hurting and I don't know why... I thank God everyday for this victory over Lucifer and his foolish plans! :) I am now 18 yrs old.

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  38. Praise Jesus for your obedience. The geatest weapon satan has is convincing people he doesn't exist. He does. We had teaching on these demons and their purposes. Permanent deliverance is possible. Its true you have to ask God to destroy it from the root. So many things cause these demons to enter your life but God is able. And, He can do it right now. Remember how Jacob didn't let go until He was blessed. I remember being afraid to sleep. I remember being held down, couldn't even speak. Over and over. Finally, I went to church for prayer. I lay on the floor, and I said aloud I'm not moving till you heal me. Maybe you won't stop the dreams but I know you can stop the fear. I prayed for about 2 hours until I felt the peace of God. He has to do it, and He will as long as you believe He can.

    To the people who don't believe...never once did she ask you to believe. Don't make a hurtful situation worse. Each of us is responsible for who we believe in...

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  39. I believe demons are real and can affect humans, but specifically, the unsaved. I have found this by reading the Bible. God is good and will protect his children... the only thing that can stop Satan, demons and their attacks is Christ our Saviour. To this, I am so thankful. That we have a God that always pursues us, loves us when we are unlovable and desires to have a relationship with us though we are selfish and pursue our own interests.God is good, seek Him and He will make Himself known to you. :) xoxo!

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  40. Pics or it didn't happen.

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  41. When I was 13 or 14 I was raped by a demon. I felt someone over me so I opened my eyes. I couldnt see anyone.. but it was like a dark shadow touching on me trying to take off my clothes. I was screaming for help but Nothing came out of my mouth. I tried moving but couldn't. It was trying to take off my underwear. I was finally able to move n was playing tug of war trying to stop it from raping me. It got in n suddenly stopped for whatever reason. I've seen n experienced alot in this life n im surprised at the people that still think certain things are only a story. Just cause u haven't experienced something doesn't mean their not real.

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  42. How is it all true... I'm sorry but I really do not understand I'm really confused... How come does all this things happen to people overseas but not to people en south africa. It seems crazy that everything happends to u. Its asif america and all overseas places is based on satanism and witchcraft. You always hear this things over the news and google. I'm sorry but I really do not understand. Can someone please explain that to me?

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  43. Hello i just wannted to tell you some stuff. like you i was born with the ability to see the dead, it dosen't help that i live next to a grave yard, so i know something thought i am still werry young i had some truble, i was just wondering did you ever try calling you gourdian if you did you could have tould it to protect you, they are as stron as your will. That is something i did since strange thing came to me..yet i was never raped by a demon well on lied next to me once... i open my eyes and i saw i shadow firs i got scared they it got closer till i remember that the my gourdian is as strong as he so i calmed down and he couldn't get close to me ..he was still there.. but what i am trying to say is if you were born with a gift you have to know how to use it you are stronger then them so don't let them walk all over you....and rthe reason your getting attacked when you pray or read is cause your will gets so strong that if he didn't knock it down you will make him go away...time for a battle you have to fight him or pray and just don't stop and let youor will get stronger and stronger :D

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  44. This has happened to me before. And I went through a lot of religions before I found the truth, which is God and God alone!

    All of what you have said is very real and it takes confidence to write such a controversial blog. I commend you.

    Stay blessed in Christ!
    -CM

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  45. you're all a bunch of wierdos!!!

    this is what religions does to people???

    NO THANKS!

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  46. I am 27the yrs old, i guess this started because of my sexual desires after i became sexually active again, this demon kept coming at night and pleased me, but after i saw it was wrong, coming from a christian family) it started rapping me. Many times i tryied to fight back but it paralyzed me. Last night before going to sleep, sexual desires came to my mind and i've been fasting lateley so i said to myself i needed to control my thoughts and submit my thoughts to christ and asked Jesus to cover me with his blood, after i felt asleep this demon came back this time i was able to wisper Jesus blood covers me and he pulled me by my hair and finally saw his face (very ugly btw)he said "why can't i just destroy you!" with such an angry face and disappered....my question would be what does he gain in rapping me ...? Still trying to figure it out but for sure i know what they do it's not with good reason

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  47. Whoever wrote this story can maybe help me. Something similar, but not as extreme is messing with me in a sexual way. Im not a girl, I think it's female but this thing ain't cute. Only happened three times, first I thought it was sleep paralysis, and it still could be, but the treatment is not working.

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  48. Hi all, to King Jesus be praised & honor forever.

    I thank GOD I found this site. I also experienced a similar happening when I was living in a shelter about 6-7 yrs ago but it was only once. I shared a room with 3 other girls, one lesbian and the rest if us straight. The girl that had the top bunk above me was new and like me she also could see ghosts but hers was more so and we shared stories. So when we all went to bed I dreamed a sexually disturbing dream that I can't share, little dis I know a demon was having sex with me. I didn't know what happened at the time and around 5:30am I got up to use the bathroom, and that's when I discovered my daisy duke shorts was pulled down my ankles and it had felt like someone fingered me. I even felt the after feeling from having sex in my stomach. It didn't hurt but was the same feeling in the stomach after normal sex. In the morning I automatically asked the lesbian if she fingered me she said no. I asked everyone else they said no and there's no way someone could sneak in your room cause there were cameras and shifting night crews. But the thing us I never dabbled with tarot cards Ouija boards witchcraft or anything foolish as that, on the contrary I always believed in Jesus & GOD. Also when I finally moved into my new apt I had my bed lined up by the wall and some nights I would feel something messing with me down there, as if a mouse got lost down there but u don't have any mice. I kept asking praying and asking GOD what it was and HE put me in a state of mind that something holy was fighting on my behalf so the demonous monster wouldn't stand a chance to get any further. Finally I turned my bed around verticlely to my wall and since having a stronger relationship with Jesus, they don't try to defile my body like that anymore. Now I fast 3 times a week, go around my apt reading Scripture most times and I say out loud I bless this house in the name if Jesus Christ. Then when I pray which is a lot I ask GOD in Jesus name to bless my blessings. Now with my 2 yr old I anoint hers and mine head when I fast. Only The Lord can battle this out for us and win everytime as long as we have faith. GOD Bless & thanks for your courage to talk about this. No one believed me about this before..

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  49. This has happened to me too. I've been raped by demons or a demon since childhood, it was sometimes very violent and I couldn't move. Would become sad out of the blue and not understand why my body was weak. I became gluten and lactose intolerent and then it stopped. Than it started again and my stomache hurts. I remember seeing it in many horrible dreams, would rape me on beds, I would see myself naked or it would push me against a wall. I thought these were erotic dreams but would wake up with actual physical pain in private area. Its worse when Im very hungry and sometimes i over eat out of fear that it will return. In past it made me want to have sex with people I didn't even like, a guy would ask me out and I wouldn't be interested and I would have those horrible dreams and next day I would decide to go out with these just cause I wanted to have sex with them. I think thats how some men get women, they summon the incubus demon. I became a serious Christian and I read my bible everyday so I wasn't expecting this after so long. This time I wanted to kill myself. God help us

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  50. please! recite this verse and the one below it when you go bed or when you feel scared and nothing shall harm you by the will of God.


    Verse of the Throne (Ayat al kursi)

    In the name of God, the Gracious, the Merciful.
    God! There is no god except He, the Living, the Everlasting. Neither slumber overtakes Him, nor sleep. To Him belongs everything in the heavens and everything on earth. Who is he that can intercede with Him except with His permission? He knows what is before them, and what is behind them; and they cannot grasp any of His knowledge, except as He wills. His Throne extends over the heavens and the earth, and their preservation does not burden Him. He is the Most High, the Great


    Daybreak (Al Falaq)

    In the name of God, the Gracious, the Merciful.
    Say, “I take refuge with the Lord of Daybreak.
    From the evil of what He created.
    And from the evil of the darkness as it gathers.
    And from the evil of those who practice sorcery.
    And from the evil of an envious when he envies.”

    write the Names of these verses on youtube. Recite in Arabic after them in youtube and by the will of God you will see the difference

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  51. demons and evil are all real iv seen and had things happen to myself because i messed around with the quija board and my two mates where scared one my mates had somthink happen to him i seen pure fear on his face the only way to keep evil away is pray to god and keep a croos around on you at all times i learned the the hard way you never mess around with the quija board

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  52. First of all, I pity all of you, yes indeed demons, angels, god, the heavens and hell fire are all real HOWEVER christianity will not bring you to paradise, turn to islam. This is the true religion, the quran is god's final words. The oldest bible that was found recently has passages that state jesus prephecizing the coming of the last prophet, Muhammad (PBUH). You can all deny and reject Allah all you want but on the day of judgement, which is approaching rapidly, you will realize islam was the way to go. If even the DEVIL and SATAN acknowledge and believe in islam prophet Muhammad what does that make all you non-believers? Think about that.

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  53. let me tell u all something for 4 years i believe in god when i was 12 years old someone used me and used my family he new me and used my compassen for overs to hurt me but saying he would kill the people that i loved so for 6 month he raped me and then never went to prison for it, but i thought god would have protect me and he did not then the man died in 2004 and he came back for me he wolud raped me for years not just in dream but he touch me as well tell me this why did god let him get me not just once but twice

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    1. God knows you and loves you. It is not by chance that I am reading your story. Please respond so I can help escape this thing once and for all.

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    2. God bless you.

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    3. Please reply so I can help you get the relief you need.

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  54. I am a man. I've had sex with demons many times in my life. Sometimes it wasn't so good. Sometimes they are hard to summon.
    What I did years ago when I had a good erection is just hump the air and after a half an hour, sometimes less, sometimes more, I would feel something in the dark of my bedroom start tickling my penis. Sometimes these demons would suck; sometimes they would fuck. Sometimes it was gentle; sometimes it was rough. Sometimes it was barely felt; sometimes they gripped my penis so hard and the up and down motions by them was so violent that not only did the bed shake but I felt like I was being violently raped! But at it's best --- there is no pleasure like it!!!!! Yet, I miss the visual and the other bodily touching, such as kissing, etc. Having sex with demons
    is very tittilating to my penis, and no woman on earth could possibly tickle my penis any better!!! Sometimes I have felt like multiple tongues were licking my penis, very very very pleasurable!!! I have not had that for years now. And although I have ejaculated maybe 3 dozen times with devils, it is very hard to reach that orgasmic state with them. As much as I desire it, it still is not as good as having a sexy woman. Or so I believe. But how would I know, since I've never had sex with a sexy woman. There definitely are advantages to both! But sex with devils is all about penis-tickle - nothing more. And they are not dependable. Although it is not against the law of the land to have sex with demons, it can be very difficult to summon them when you want sex. I just start humping, these days with my penis between my legs (because I don't have the erection that I had 10 years ago). They are drawn to erections,
    and the better the quality of my erection, the more available the demons are; when I want to be tickled but have not much of an erection, they won't come. So to sum this all up, sex with demons is real. AND when you get it great from them - there is no feeling like it in the world for your penis! I would assume that it would be the same for a vagina? And anyone can prove that demons exist just by offering your genitals to them, and humping the error for a half an hour or an hour, like you're having sex with them. In most cases, they will eventually fuck you! And you will have no doubt that a demon or demons (they love to join in forces, and perhaps that is the reason sometimes it is barely felt and other times my penis was held so tight that it actually hurt! In these few instances that hurt
    my penis, I imagine that hundreds or even thousands of demons were all fucking me at the same time, and THAT is the reason it felt so snug and tight. But anyone can learn for himself or herself. But beware, once they pleasure you, it can be very addictive!!! It is so indescribably tickly that you will want it often!!! Nonetheless, it's all about tickling your penis or vagina. If you want more than that, such as kissing and visual, stay with human sex. I wish I had a wife ...

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  55. I don' t think he will ever leave you alone as long as you refer to him as "my demon". I have had about the same experience except my demon never hurt me, he's been around since I was in my babybed. In fact I know he saved my life, when I was 18 I was going through a lot and Itook a whole bottle of sleeping pills, I still remember him coming to me giving me "I don't think so look" I woke up the next morning and got help.

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  56. I can't believe the number of people who believe this crap.

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  57. Christians that Shun on people for not believing in god reaaalllyy piss me off..

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  58. I just want to say to the writer of this story you are very brave in sharing your experiences, and I pray that God be with you always and protect you. As to those on this site who have doubts about the truth of these things, I would probably be one of you if I hadn't had an experience of my own. When I was nine years old during the night my bed was literaly picked up off th floor about a foot and the bottom end slammed on the floor four times by some incredibly powerful unseen force. At the time no one believed me, I tried to think of a logical explaination, but I couldn't. It happened. Afted that I came to know there is more to this world than what we see. Years later when I was discussing my christian beliefs with my father (a man who never went to church or talked about God) he described a time when once he nearly drowned (I believe he had tried to commit suicide) he was at the bottom of a deep river at night, next to a large dam. The current from the water coming through the dam made it impossible for him to swim to the surface. Just as his lungs had beed filled with water the river bottom lit up so everything was visable and a voice told him to pull himself out. . Also years later, the day before he unexpectedly died at age 47, he described to my brother in detail how Jesus had been standing near his bed during the night, and how he told him he must go with him, though my father was afraid to go, but Jesus reassured him all would be ok. These are real experiences from my family, and you'd be surprised when you actually sit down and talk with people on a personal level how many have had such experiences. Literaly millions. But people are afraid of talking about it, of being ridiculed or labeled crazy. For those who believe without proof, your faith is truly great. For us who have seen, we cannot deny. We know the truth. May God be with you all.

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  59. I would like to add that I firmly believe in the power of prayer. Prayer in numbers can have immense affect in defeating the actions of satan. I myself am a man, but sympathise with all those who have shared their experiences on this site. I have worked closely with both catholic and protestant churches. I encourage anyone who is experiencing these problems to seek advice of a qualified priest or pastor, though they can be hard to find. In any case I and other christians I work with in europe will pray for you if you wish, just ask us. My email is nr.penfold@mail.ru May God be with you and protect you in the name of Jesus Christ our savior

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  60. I had eight demons do this to me and it seems like every random spirit nearby wants to take a turn. I haven't slept an entire night in almost a year. I have to sleep in the daytime because at night they never leave me alone. It hurts and I'm so sick of it but there is nothing I can do but lie there and let them. Praying never helps; it just makes them angrier and makes them hurt me more. I'm afraid that they'll never leave

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  61. A demon attacked me sexually me but I already knew how to stop it cos of 4 previous attacks in the night of paralysis & choking. The 1st time a demon caused me to be paralyzed in my sleep so I couldnt breathe so I prayed in my mind to God to help & tried to break free by praying out loud, but God told me to speak out loud the name of Jesus so I kept trying til I could say Jesus's name & then the demon left. This hapened 5 times over many yrs but never had fear in it again cos satan has no power over the name of Jesus.
    BUT THE LAST TIME WAS VERY DIFFERENT - I WAS NOT ASLEEP & IT WAS A SEXUAL ATTACK. I was wide awake & walking in my house in daytime when I suddenly felt intense exhaustion come on me & I had to fight to keep awake but as I began to lay down I saw a demon fly at me & I felt it wrap itself around me & felt a strong sexual power & it changed itself into the appearance of a young Indian Brave on top of me & about to have sex with me. I knew it was a demon I had to fight so I yelled out the name of Jesus. I told it to go in Jesus name so it left. I asked God why it happened. He then reminded me that the night b4 my husband had watched a documentary on American Indians & I was in the room for just a minute as he was watching an old Indian medicine man sitting with his eyes closed singing a song, so I realised the medicine man was doing some sort of Indian magic, so I now knew how the demon entered our house to attack me. That demon was given legal right to enter our home by my husband letting that Indian medicine man summon up his demonic sources he used to do his so-called 'medicine' in our home through the tv. It made me remember how when i was a child i had heard that when many ppl watched on tv a magician who used to bend spoons that dozens of these ppl would find spoons bent in their homes straight afterward. I also know that sometimes ppl get supernaturally healed by Jesus when watching Christian tv when the Presence of God is very strong. So any supernatural power at work on the tv can enter our homes & if we go to the movies & watch things that demons play a part in then they can come on us, which is why we must not be involved in religious rituals & religious festivals & religious dances etc which are offering honour to other gods &/or demons. So we must ask God to forgive us of participating in anything like this or for letting anything that is of satan into our homes even through the tv, & then we must tell any evil that has come into our home to leave in Jesus name!
    So call on Jesus whenever any type of demonic attack comes, & if you belong to Jesus you have nothing to fear. The bible says we were given authority to cast out demons & were commanded to do so, so there is no need to be afraid of satan & his demons, because Jesus lives in those who have been saved by repenting of their sins & asking Jesus to become their Saviour. Every christian needs to learn how to do spiritual warfare, but the minimum of this is to declare that the Blood of Jesus is your protection & covering & to tell satan & his demons to leave you & your home & family & every part of your life because Jesus defeated them by His Blood at the Cross, & gave us authority over them in Jesus name so they must leave NOW! If you do this, they will leave. Its good to pray, but God commands us to cast them out & He tells us to believe him & to obey. He gave us a free will, so we must do it His way & do the commanding . but always IN JESUS NAME! It must work & it always works! If your family members watch or do things in your home that are in opposition to the bible such as magic etc then each morning & before you go to sleep declare that the blood of Jesus covers you and your home & that no evil must enter & any evil that may hav suck in must leave in Jesus Name & not touch you!

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  62. This is so powerful. Complete honesty, whether victim , ally, or foe.The victory starts with confession. God cannot help when in denial. No one can. Through honest confession the door opens for the Lord to enter and intervene on one's behalf.
    Melissa thanks for sharing. Will share more later.

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  63. hmm... so a "demon" attacked you again and again, and ONLY when you started reading the bible it "seems" that it have gone away. So I guess you don't deserve to be "saved" if you don't read the bible or are a non-believer. Even if you are "attacked" by forces that are supposed to be in your gods jurisdiction. Your god is kindest of them all isn't he? I am starting to believe that money was his idea too. After all, it works the same.
    Now on the other hand, the story is really good. Yes, I am against rape but hey I'm also human (unfortunately).

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  64. Did you consider seeking psychiatric or clinical therapy?

    I'm not attacking your beliefs here, but this sounds like a case of schizophrenia or other related neurotic disorder. That does not mean you are goofy or completely "crazy." Some people have had similar experiences as yours. It does not make you any less of a person to seek help.

    Mental illness is a biological abnormality in which the chemical composition of the brain is drastically altered.

    Did you ever investigate whether or not your problem was not a supernatural problem, but a mental disorder? You have been attacked for 12 years. This may seem very real to you and it should for a mental disorder.

    I know there is a social stigma of mental disorders, but I assure you, this is a real problem that you should look into.

    People like you have indeed found help.

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    1. About this statement: "Mental illness is a biological abnormality in which the chemical composition of the brain is drastically altered. "

      Do you know that is a cliche ? There are no scientific studies establish what is the normal composition of a normal brain that is not.
      PROOF: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHu7Ik36128

      Psychology is not a science.

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  65. Wow what bull crap, i have BOTH a succubus AND an incubus, both of them are the BEST, MOST AMAZING GENTLE lovers i have ever had!

    -Krystal

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  66. Hey everyone, lets allow the doctors to diagnose people okay? Schizophrenia is diagnosing someone with multiple personality disorder leaning on insanity. That is insulting for you to say that just because you have not experienced something.

    Stop saying there is or there isn't a God. Scientist can't prove there being a God because it is based on faith. I am agnostic. I was raised a Christian and as much as I respect religon, asking God for help didn't work for me.

    In 2007, I was sexually molested by my brother. I was 13 and he was 17.
    In 2008, my dad did the same thing to me. It wasn't even a year after my brother.

    When I begged for Gods help and nothing happened, it made me walk away from Christianity for myself and I believed for years it was my fault everything happened.

    I have been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Insomnia.

    But just this morning, I stayed up until 7:30AM and woke up at 8:15AM with a spiritual attack.

    The attack was like how many above described. It was the same location I woke up in, so it seemed really real! I could feel a presence in the room before I slept. I heard it growl before I closed my eyes and I thought I was just sleep deprived and crazy. In sleep, I felt the cold sensation overcome me to where my chest was being pressed down and I couldn't breath. When I tried to speak, my voice came out disoriented and as if multiple voices were coming out of my body. I felt so weak and powerful at the same time. Powerful in the presence of more than just me, but weak because I couldn't control this power. The spirit was feeling me up and when I put my hand on my legs, I felt a clammy but warm hand hold mine and I could feel the spirits form. Masculine, but lean muscle on his arms. Defined cheek bones. We started to wrestle again and I thought fetal position would make him go away. He touched just between my legs and I came in a second. That was when I heard the spirit say, "Oh you liked that huh Slut.." He then dug his fingers into my right rib cage and I shot up out of breath. Why did he tickle me? I thought.

    I read up on the first thing us agnostic people and atheists do and that is science. The last thing I wanted was to fear this being into being a demon, or a scary thing. I just got to wondering why.

    When I studied sleep paralysis, it all made sense. It happens with people who lack melatonin and your body can't figure out whether going to sleep or waking up, The amygdala is made to identify threats, this puts a half asleep body in shock as if another presence is there and it's a hallucination.

    Now, after reading all these comments on this, I believe it really could be anything. But when someone noted that they summoned a "spirit husband" that made sense to me. Last night/ this morning I asked a higher power to help me find my husband/wife and allow me to dream about them. When I masterbate, I don't get off to a specific person, but the idea of being with someone that loves me. Maybe I did call a spirit to be with me... Not exactly what I wanted, but be careful what you wish for.

    Oh, and on that envy for having dreams or experiences like this, I don't think you are mad, crazy or disgusting. You don't disturb me. I oddly have a "rape fetish" where I hope one day someone I'm in love with will rape me with my consent. Basically, the thrill of being chased, terrorized, suffocated, choked and pleasured until I scream is my fantasy.

    Call me whatever you want but when you grow up as a young teenager justifying every sexual experience, good or bad because its "anything but my dad or my brother" I believe put me in that mind set. But it was always curious to me that if it wasn't my brother or my father, would I have enjoyed saying no and having someone do what they wished for anyways?

    I hope this helps someone one day. I'm obviously sleep deprived and thinking too much. But love you all, may good energy flow through all of us. We are one!

    E.S. Age:19

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    1. Honestly thank you so much for your story. I too am agnostic but understand that there are things beyond us that are way too hard to explain. I just started having these super real experiences and I'm always thinking, it's just my brain because I actually have a BS in psychology. I've never been sexually abused and this all started when I moved to this new house on my reservation. It just is reoccurring and I have never had something so questionable or so real. Anyway, we continue the fight, but I just wanted to say your story meant a lot to me so thank you for sharing.

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    2. Psychiatry is not science. It is opinion.

      Proof: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UHu7Ik36128

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    3. TRUE Psychiatry is NOT science it is pseudo-science and full of theories and opinions.

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  67. hi, this is a little hard for me to say but being anonymous helps so here it goes.

    as far as i can tell ive had these "visits" since i was 8 (maybe even before if my mind blocked the real first few times from memory) the first time i remember i was almost asleep, but woke up almost immediately after i closed my eyes. i felt like something was at the foot of my bed and getting closer. i could tell a figure was moving toward me cuz the nightlight on the wall behind the figure was blurry and dark. i tried putting the covers over my head but i felt too weak to move and i wouldve started screaming but i couldnt even do that! all i could do was stare at it and i felt tears in my eyes. is seemed to float over my bed and felt like another blanket was coming over me only is was heavy. i felt is push down on my legs and stomach and a cold "breath" on my chest. i couldnt stand it and i closed my eyes and felt something like a dry tongue on my cheek then it left and the heavyness was gone and i burst into tears and ran screaming to my parents room. they thought i just had a nightmare and convinced me that was all is was. every couple of nights it came back doing almost the exact same thing except "licking" more times in other places like my forehead my neck and even my ears.

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  68. Wow you're all ridiculous..I used to believe in all this god , demons and devil and all that crap. But one day I was in an accident that caused me to go to the hospital. I was dead for 8:56 seconds and I can tell you by experience there is not white light or hell or all that crap...I had to be revived with some sort of shot and the shock things and went into a comma for 3 months ...btw I'm 16 and this happened last year.so you weak people can go ahead and believe in false hope and live in your fantasy world. But in the mean time, I'll just stick with reality.

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  69. Ha ha you know its so interesting that the ones who have never experienced anything they cant explain are the quickest to call us weak people. Ironic that the most vacant people are always the quickest to accuse others of being "weak". Reality he calls it, you're just being suckered buddy. To them you're one of the oblivious ones they dont have to worry about. They usually focus on the ones who used to be involved in witchcraft, whatever you want to call it, because you're slipping out of their grip. They dont like losing ground. To those who say they can protect themselves because they have the best spells - again you're being suckered. If they can keep you believing that, they know they can come back and grab you anytime they want. You're easy meat, just like the oblivious ones. Guys, this is only pre-game warmup, and to those of you who have discovered that the ultimate power is Christ Jesus, you'll do fine. But Mr. Oblivious here and all the "grand master" wizards and witches or whatever you want to term yourselves, he's going to mop the floor with you. You have no clue as to what is really going on around you, you're like fat little chickens ready for the plucking. There's only two sides here, Christs and Satans. Your "reality" is going to come apart awfully quickly when you find out the real agenda that has been playing out in this world since man first drew breath. Don't put people down when you know nothing of their world. 16 years old and he knows everything, what a laugh. I would laugh, if I didn't fear so much for you.

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  70. Funny how homosapians have been on earth for. 300,000 years yet abrahamic monotheism started around 7000yrs ago, I guess your god was on break you know how abrahamic gods hate the sin of being idle, so it must hate itself for that sin also the fact written language was invented by humans,cuneiform and Phoenician good to know god supports 300,000 yrs or savagery and ignorance,so why is anything unexplained automatically a "demon" did you ever assume your being raped by a ghost or an alien ghost that died long ago ,why assume demon,did fundi propaganda convince you?,why don't Buddhists,Zoroastrian,atheists, have these experiences, seems like creepy pasta from x chain,cuddos for turning your trolling experiences as a lying tool of proselytism,im sure you dont even believe aliens exists like humans and the universe rotates around the anthroprocentric collective of man idea of self worth and interpretation how uninspired and droll you make the god in your own image out to be

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    1. Hello there judge - Ok for you to be the one who is right and to be the judge eh?

      "why don't Buddhists,Zoroastrian,atheists, have these experiences," really? So you know everything then I am assuming. So enlighten us more with your sweeping general statements and judgements against people and things you do not know.

      Do you reckon that you are impressing anyone?

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