I remember those days! It happens by trial and error in my experience and those I have chatted with. My best advice is if you are beginning a new path, with new gifts and new ways then you should learn to meditate, cleanse and empower yourself. If you receive psychic cognitive forms you will experience migraines and aura colors at random when you first acknowledge that perhaps something is different.
I have been called everything in the world to many different people. Today because of this sight I have a better category of grouping that I might call myself. I even studied Wicca, Druidism (even though I’m not male), Pagan, Christianity, Mormon, Buddhism, Hinduism, Nabarnatale, Kabala, and new age in search of where and what I might be.
Even though I do not suck physical life force I do require energy other than my own. It was learning to not pass by and take that was my biggest challenge. So for me this name “Vampire” is more comforting - and maybe the closest name I might ever find to classify my attributes and abilities. And it is what it is if you are what you are.
What I’m trying to say (and I do realize this is very long), is that be and feel blessed that you are what you are and maybe on the right trail to what you might be. Because I have searched high and low since I was a young child. I learned my gifts by awkward experiences and hurtful lessons. I had to harness and create a faith in my own abilities(that someone or something gave these things to me). I was born this way and I scared my parents on a regular basis because of my gifts. I was never the normal baby or child. Starting at birth. (Who is born with a spiritual sword over their body and three cloaked spirits) I would still love to know who they are. I have never had contact with all three of them. I believe I have one on a regular basis.
It was so traumatic for my mother she swore the house haunted and moved. They built a house in Kentucky and a week before it burned down I packed a toy bag and told my teddy bear to climb out the window when the house blew up. My mother wouldn’t let me take my bag the day I wanted to. As we left the house red waves dripped out of the ceiling and fell down the walls like a mix of blood and dust. My mother was pregnant and very full term. We held hands walking away from the house. We returned watching a mushroom of black smoke over the mountain. The closer we came… the reality was growing. My fathers work at hand had erupted and feathered over the mountain in a canopy of decay.
While staying at my grandmas house after the fire - a train would come directly behind her house. I would place my ears to the floor daily, hands on palms touching the floor elbows up. I’d stay this way forever. And then laugh as the train passed. I suppose in my mothers depression, while sitting in a chair in the living room she noticed. I could detect the vibration of the train way before the noise ever came to their level of hearing or their feeling. This gift has become very intense as it is the first of many I had ran across very early in life.
I have settled today with many gifts and a very interesting story for the right listener. My children have their own gifts. But who did I get this from? It was once told to me. Lie? I do not know. That my mother had an Italian boyfriend before she and my father developed relations. The timing is all off in the dating story. Perhaps this mysterious man is my father? It has been questioned by the scarce few that witnessed the drama!
Nonetheless - we are what we are and there isn’t a manual on how to manage your gifts and what you might be given these signs. I wish there was! Its just knowing thyself and loving thyself enough to care to learn about what you can do and what your purpose is. Isn’t that what we all search for anyways in this life? Isn’t this desire what locks us in anyways? We are what we were destine to be. And we all are given these gifts, powers, abilities (whatever you wanna call it) because it is time to evolve and be more than mundane.
So whomever you are, whatever your wondering what you are… Know that you can feel the call inside your soul and if you listen it will bring you home. Blessed be my friends!
Sent in by des, Copyright 2010